Nothing could have prepared me for the way my life has changed since becoming a mama. I read books (well, parts of them), took birth, baby and breastfeeding classes, and talked to other moms, but no amount of conversations or books could accurately prep me for the vast amount of emotions I’ve felt in the past four months (Note – I started writing this post when Samuel was eight weeks old and am just now getting back to it.) and what responsibilities my new title required.
In the short time, I’ve already done so many of the things I said I’d never do. Before March 8, it was easy to look at other moms and decide that I would or wouldn’t do _fill in the blank_. Oh, how things have changed! It’s definitely laughable. Here are a few of the things I said I’d never do that I actually do. And, hey, if you’re reading this in preparation to become a mom, be careful what you say!
1. I won’t be THAT mama that posts pictures of my baby all the time. That is the first thing that went out the window. The second my little man (well, maybe not the second… but soon after Samuel was placed into my arms, he became my favorite human being on the planet. (Sorry, Zach!)
2. I’ll prioritize going on dates with my husband. In Samuel’s four months, I can count on my hand the number of dress up and go out without the baby nights Zach and I have had… one. Yes, that’s it. One. I’m ashamed to say that I’m to blame for this. It’s hard work to go out and leaving my baby is way harder than I ever imagined. (But what if he needs me?!)
3. I’ll still do the same things as before. When I look at the bigger picture, I still do a lot of the same activities. I go out to eat with my friends. I wake up early. I take care of myself. I go to Target. The frequency is no where near what it was before Samuel, and I’m actually okay with that.
These are just a few of the things I find myself doing (or not doing) on a day-to-day basis that are not what I said I’d do. Being a mama comes with so many new responsibilities that make even the toughest days feel rewarding. At the end of it, my husband and I are responsible for Samuel, and I can go to bed each night (even if it’s short-lived before my baby needs me) knowing I’m giving him my all.
Hey Mama (or Dada)! What is something you swore you’d never do that you actually do?